Tag: twentysomething

Hello, again.

No feeling will ever compare to that feeling. No night will ever come close to the best night of my life. The love had never been so pure. The happiness had never been so fitting. The dreamy euphoria was one of a kind. The nostalgia of every moment I think back is the past I always want to relive. So, tell me why as … Read More Hello, again.

Knight.

Oh, darling. You thought you could just wake up one morning and they’d be your knight and shining armor? Did you believe the song spilling from their mouth, because they said they only sang it for you? Oh, so, gullible. This may be a dumb question, but how long did it take for you to realize it was the same snake, dressed in different … Read More Knight.

The Answer is No

And when someone who has no idea who you are tries to tear you down, makes assumptions of who you are, and your relationship with the closest people in your life. All because you’d never pick them, not in a million years. They aren’t the one. But, they want to ruin you with a few words, without any history of who you are and … Read More The Answer is No

One Million

It’s only the dark & twisties, I remind myself. It’s only the dark and the damaged. Just breathe. Take your meds. Breathe. Remind yourself. Breathe again. Keep. Breathing. But tonight, like some nights…like this night, I can’t breathe. Did I forget my meds? Why am I thinking these thoughts? Go away, go away, go away. I’m trying to breathe here and you’re getting in … Read More One Million

Searching

Okay, so. I have no words. I am empty. Most moments I am numb but then the waves come and I feel everything. This, is a huge wave. And I check my phone, nothing. My inbox, nothing. My door, my car… I looked for you everywhere I went and I found nothing. So, here I am. Searching. Searching for words. Emotions. Answers. You. Coming … Read More Searching

Part 2

When you meet someone, you see skin, beautiful eyes, breathtaking smile, brightly colored personality; and you feel warm and fluttery. But when you meet someone, you don’t know what keeps them up at night, or if they’ve had pain. So much pain it changed them, altered their whole body from skull to toe, sympathetic to nervous system. You can’t tell that they have days … Read More Part 2

I Must’ve Forgotten

“Don’t forget your worth,” she said. But, I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. Xo, #thets

Seeing Double

My true Gemini. Two people in one. One moment, you. The next, a different you. I love them both. They’re both mine. I accept both. I treasure both. I find happiness in both. I choose them both. But, one, I’m not sure which… but one of those you’s, doesn’t love me back. I’ve known it. And I’ve picked you both every day, anyway. Xo, … Read More Seeing Double

Cotton Candy

My words will easily cut you like a knife in your heart.  Taste as sweet as cotton candy but if only for a moment.  This I know.  And I know my shortcomings of being too harsh, too cold, not enough chances. But, I make up for it ten fold, every time.  Yet, some just don't like cotton candy; your type of sweet.  Some see … Read More Cotton Candy

The Body.

Of course. During what I thought was the worst time of my life I had my revenge body. And it was gorgeous. One of he closest times to being the best it could be. But how? Well, when you’re crying 20 hours a day, 6 days a week for a good 3 months, your appetite begins to wear dry. So rules to getting the … Read More The Body.

Change

Well, here I am on an elliptical. A cardio machine I haven’t touched in at least 3 years. Why? I’m just getting fat. Nothing crazy, just fat. Of course, I can still dead lift you, squat you, maybe not bench press but soon, (I’ll touch on that later). But yet, my hormones and stress levels, mixed in with fooling myself ONCE again that I … Read More Change

10/18/2015

Waking up, breathless. Dreaming the most fearful traumatic experience; the only thing that could break me down to the core. Only to waking up, and realizing not only are you living in my subconscious, but in my reality.     Xo, #thets