Okay, so. I have no words. I am empty. Most moments I am numb but then the waves come and I feel everything. This, is a huge wave. And I check my phone, nothing. My inbox, nothing. My door, my car… I looked for you everywhere I went and I found nothing. So, here I am. Searching. Searching for words. Emotions. Answers. You. Coming … Read More
“Don’t forget your worth,” she said. But, I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. Xo, #thets
When you meet someone, you see skin, beautiful eyes, breathtaking smile, brightly colored personality; and you feel warm and fluttery. But when you meet someone, you don’t know what keeps them up at night, or if they’ve had pain. So much pain it changed them, altered their whole body from skull to toe, sympathetic to nervous system. You can’t tell that they have days … Read More Part 2
My true Gemini. Two people in one. One moment, you. The next, a different you. I love them both. They’re both mine. I accept both. I treasure both. I find happiness in both. I choose them both. But, one, I’m not sure which… but one of those you’s, doesn’t love me back. I’ve known it. And I’ve picked you both every day, anyway. Xo, … Read More Seeing Double
My words will easily cut you like a knife in your heart. Taste as sweet as cotton candy but if only for a moment. This I know. And I know my shortcomings of being too harsh, too cold, not enough chances. But, I make up for it ten fold, every time. Yet, some just don't like cotton candy; your type of sweet. Some see … Read More Cotton Candy
Of course. During what I thought was the worst time of my life I had my revenge body. And it was gorgeous. One of he closest times to being the best it could be. But how? Well, when you’re crying 20 hours a day, 6 days a week for a good 3 months, your appetite begins to wear dry. So rules to getting the … Read More The Body.
Well, here I am on an elliptical. A cardio machine I haven’t touched in at least 3 years. Why? I’m just getting fat. Nothing crazy, just fat. Of course, I can still dead lift you, squat you, maybe not bench press but soon, (I’ll touch on that later). But yet, my hormones and stress levels, mixed in with fooling myself ONCE again that I … Read More Change
I’m going to do something a little different here, bear with me? I lost my father about a year ago. He died of pancreatic cancer. I was his baby; the youngest. I also happened to be the only one mentally, emotionally and physically able to take care of him. When he died, I had it all together still. My sisters lost it, either reached … Read More This is me, now.
“LOL you are a joke. You are crazy. You push every person away and then try to blame them for not being here. You’re the most selfish person. You’re the most fucked up person. You are wrong.” Author: You. How easy it is for you to forget all the empty promises you made to me that I once believed. How easy it is for … Read More Me: According to You