Tag: liveandletlive

If Only

I should have let you go when I had the chance. I should have seen this was too good to be true. I should’ve known that I’d find the truth between your lies. As much as I wanted to believe you meant it, I knew. As much as I said I wouldn’t let you do it all over again, you tried. As much as … Read More If Only

Okay, so. I have no words. I am empty. Most moments I am numb but then the waves come and I feel everything. This, is a huge wave. And I check my phone, nothing. My inbox, nothing. My door, my car… I looked for you everywhere I went and I found nothing. So, here I am. Searching. Searching for words. Emotions. Answers. You. Coming … Read More

“Don’t forget your worth,” she said. But, I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. Xo, #thets

Part 2

When you meet someone, you see skin, beautiful eyes, breathtaking smile, brightly colored personality; and you feel warm and fluttery. But when you meet someone, you don’t know what keeps them up at night, or if they’ve had pain. So much pain it changed them, altered their whole body from skull to toe, sympathetic to nervous system. You can’t tell that they have days … Read More Part 2

Seeing Double

My true Gemini. Two people in one. One moment, you. The next, a different you. I love them both. They’re both mine. I accept both. I treasure both. I find happiness in both. I choose them both. But, one, I’m not sure which… but one of those you’s, doesn’t love me back. I’ve known it. And I’ve picked you both every day, anyway. Xo, … Read More Seeing Double

Cotton Candy

My words will easily cut you like a knife in your heart.  Taste as sweet as cotton candy but if only for a moment.  This I know.  And I know my shortcomings of being too harsh, too cold, not enough chances. But, I make up for it ten fold, every time.  Yet, some just don't like cotton candy; your type of sweet.  Some see … Read More Cotton Candy

So, okay. I wasn’t trying to be that one, not to you. I’m realizing that, no one is safe in my life from that. It’s no secret that I’m just all too real for someone like you. That’s okay, isn’t it? I mean, maybe for you but certainly not for me. I’m to real and that’s not an issue, the issue is how you’ve … Read More

Fool Me Once,

Well I must say, I’d be lying if I said you didn’t surprise me. You got me good. Jokes on me. You got me so good that I just fell right back into you. You got me so good, that it only took a minute. You got me, and I was so blindsided, by the idea that we could ever ever ever be together. … Read More Fool Me Once,

10/18/2015

Waking up, breathless. Dreaming the most fearful traumatic experience; the only thing that could break me down to the core. Only to waking up, and realizing not only are you living in my subconscious, but in my reality.     Xo, #thets

The Struggle

It is not secret that I am dark and twisty, and it’s no secret that I have a love for weightlifting. These two worlds are constantly conflicting. I started my new journey of my 20’s in September of last year, I began weightlifting consistently and started taking control of my stress and depression. When I was put on medication it helped control my fluctuating … Read More The Struggle