Tag: darkandtwisty

One

And, as expected in one split second you were exactly what I knew you to be all along. And, as expected silence — but what would you anticipate from a coward? So, as expected I bite the bullet thinking of the possibility of you even having the privilege to have my forgiveness. And, as expected, I stand by my convictions unlike you so don’t … Read More One

The Answer is No

And when someone who has no idea who you are tries to tear you down, makes assumptions of who you are, and your relationship with the closest people in your life. All because you’d never pick them, not in a million years. They aren’t the one. But, they want to ruin you with a few words, without any history of who you are and … Read More The Answer is No

One Million

It’s only the dark & twisties, I remind myself. It’s only the dark and the damaged. Just breathe. Take your meds. Breathe. Remind yourself. Breathe again. Keep. Breathing. But tonight, like some nights…like this night, I can’t breathe. Did I forget my meds? Why am I thinking these thoughts? Go away, go away, go away. I’m trying to breathe here and you’re getting in … Read More One Million

Thanksgiving

I only wish to one day pick you and in return stop choosing fear. We’ve grown apart. Xo, #thets

Searching

Okay, so. I have no words. I am empty. Most moments I am numb but then the waves come and I feel everything. This, is a huge wave. And I check my phone, nothing. My inbox, nothing. My door, my car… I looked for you everywhere I went and I found nothing. So, here I am. Searching. Searching for words. Emotions. Answers. You. Coming … Read More Searching

Part 2

When you meet someone, you see skin, beautiful eyes, breathtaking smile, brightly colored personality; and you feel warm and fluttery. But when you meet someone, you don’t know what keeps them up at night, or if they’ve had pain. So much pain it changed them, altered their whole body from skull to toe, sympathetic to nervous system. You can’t tell that they have days … Read More Part 2

I Must’ve Forgotten

“Don’t forget your worth,” she said. But, I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. Xo, #thets

Seeing Double

My true Gemini. Two people in one. One moment, you. The next, a different you. I love them both. They’re both mine. I accept both. I treasure both. I find happiness in both. I choose them both. But, one, I’m not sure which… but one of those you’s, doesn’t love me back. I’ve known it. And I’ve picked you both every day, anyway. Xo, … Read More Seeing Double

Part 1

I don’t write happy things. I don’t write positive things. I can’t formulate a sentence in my head that comes off as sugary-sweet and not bitter-sweet. I don’t, I can’t. So then as the universe likes to do, you came into my life. But, you didn’t walk in, knocking then waiting for permission to come in. No, you fell smack down on my feet … Read More Part 1

Cotton Candy

My words will easily cut you like a knife in your heart.  Taste as sweet as cotton candy but if only for a moment.  This I know.  And I know my shortcomings of being too harsh, too cold, not enough chances. But, I make up for it ten fold, every time.  Yet, some just don't like cotton candy; your type of sweet.  Some see … Read More Cotton Candy

So, okay. I wasn’t trying to be that one, not to you. I’m realizing that, no one is safe in my life from that. It’s no secret that I’m just all too real for someone like you. That’s okay, isn’t it? I mean, maybe for you but certainly not for me. I’m to real and that’s not an issue, the issue is how you’ve … Read More

Fool Me Once,

Well I must say, I’d be lying if I said you didn’t surprise me. You got me good. Jokes on me. You got me so good that I just fell right back into you. You got me so good, that it only took a minute. You got me, and I was so blindsided, by the idea that we could ever ever ever be together. … Read More Fool Me Once,