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Truths

As I lay here, reviewing and recovering from the night I just endured, I know few things to be true: 1. I have basic human rights and because of those rights I am entitled to let go and cut off any person who violates them. 2. I regret you. I learned nothing from you. I only learned about myself. You’re scum. The toxicity of … Read More Truths

If Only

I should have let you go when I had the chance. I should have seen this was too good to be true. I should’ve known that I’d find the truth between your lies. As much as I wanted to believe you meant it, I knew. As much as I said I wouldn’t let you do it all over again, you tried. As much as … Read More If Only

I have no words. No words for how I feel or why I feel this way. So I have no words. And it’s frightening as all hell. X…o.. #thets

All I’ll ever have are the memories. I don’t know if they were real, or a dream. Disingenuous, or authentic. But now it’s all that’s left. All I have. Real or not. Lies or truth. You or the idea of you. Fake or not, I can’t stand how much I miss you. And how much I know you…. don’t. Goodbye, #thets

6:56

I called you. A hour and 56 minutes after you walked away from me. I was calling to tell you that I want you in my life. No matter how fucked up life is right now. No matter how fucked it up it could be. Will be. I called you. I was calling to tell you that I forgave you. For any wrongdoing you’ve … Read More 6:56

Nothing is better than calling someone at 5:00am to destroy them.

Part 2

When you meet someone, you see skin, beautiful eyes, breathtaking smile, brightly colored personality; and you feel warm and fluttery. But when you meet someone, you don’t know what keeps them up at night, or if they’ve had pain. So much pain it changed them, altered their whole body from skull to toe, sympathetic to nervous system. You can’t tell that they have days … Read More Part 2

How do I stay knowing you don’t love me the way I love you. How do I stay after all the hurtful things you did and said. How can I stay when we are perfect and everything is fine, we are learning and growing. And the, just.like.that. The first moment of imperfection, the first glimpse of effort being had… you find every excuse to … Read More

Cotton Candy

My words will easily cut you like a knife in your heart.  Taste as sweet as cotton candy but if only for a moment.  This I know.  And I know my shortcomings of being too harsh, too cold, not enough chances. But, I make up for it ten fold, every time.  Yet, some just don't like cotton candy; your type of sweet.  Some see … Read More Cotton Candy

I'm sorry that you needed forgiveness from me when I was drowning in my own darkness. I'm sorry you left because my darkness was inferior to your importance. Xo,#thets