I saw something that you don’t know I’ve seen. And, to be honest, it made my heart full for about 3 seconds. The unfortunate thing is if I hadn’t seen anything I wouldn’t know anything because you don’t like to tell me…anything. Without knowing what I do now I know that, I knew that, we are completely different and our lives are moving in two different directions and you’ll never in a million years tell me what you want but I want to know.
You’ll never know this but there’s a big part of me that has been heartbroken by you since November and you can never say the right thing to bring me back, full circle. You’ll never know this but there’s a big part of me that just needs you, in all your entirety. And I’m in this, more than I planned on. I think I’m in this, even knowing that you’re not and knowing that you’ll never tell me; I’m in this. And I’m going to be in it until you realize you’re in it. If you realize.
I saw something and it kept my heart full for about 3 seconds and now I’m right back to not understanding you. But, 3 seconds was all it took for me hold on to you and not let go even knowing you’ll never hold back.