I guess I don’t understand…

I don’t understand how I get yelled at and dismissed; hung up on.

I guess I thought that you finally got it, but apparently not.

I just don’t understand.

Because, you’ve never been around. You’ve never stuck around long enough. In fact, you’ve been the one to “jerk me around” time and time again. I don’t understand how I can be the one to hurt you, how I can be the one to pick you up and drop you, how I can be the one to be in the wrong. I just don’t understand because you have always been the one to leave me.

So, since I don’t understand maybe you can understand how for every time you’ve left me, and you haven’t picked me, so I swear I’m not jerking you around when I say that I push you away it’s because you’ve always left me, and you’ve never come back. You’ve left, without caring for me one ounce and I’ll push you away because it beats you leaving me again, and not caring about me enough–again, which you proved to be true already, again.

I just don’t understand because all this time I never played a game with you. I just don’t understand because the last time, I thought was the last time I would be hung up on.

So no, I wasn’t…I was just beating you to the punch and now I’m just left here and I don’t understand.

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